Remember how I blogged that we were going to wait to have another? And then I blogged about how I blogged that we were going to wait to have another baby but we changed our minds and hearts?
Well, who’s to say that we can even have one in the first place- but we did decide to try again. I found myself re-reading the blog about waiting to have another baby and thinking, I was in a very deep business mode mind frame at that time and didn’t give myself enough credit that I could be capable of rocking out this business and being a mother. Our hearts and minds changed not too long after making that “decision” and we decided that another baby was where we were heading.
Even BETTER of a sign to make that decision? The fact that after the first wedding of the season I turned the entire wedding around in days. Shoot it Saturday, edited by Monday night, blogged Tuesday, accepted to be published on online wedding blogs TWICE and mailed that week!
Come on! Mama has the workflow GOING! Now, it’s not perfect but it’s getting very tightened up and I like it. Didn’t know how to run this ship as tightly as I wanted for years and now I know what needs to be done and how I work best.
So, last month we tried for the first time and were unsuccessful. Maybe we timed late (we are 99% sure we timed late, anyone who has TRIED to get pregnant knows what we are talking about!) and maybe we just didn’t have it happen because it wasn’t meant to. That would have been a late December baby and because I have an early December wedding this year, that may have been a sign. I am totally not afraid to shoot pregnant (hello! my whole first year, 20 weddings pregnant until 36 weeks shooting! loved it!) but we are thinking January is sounding great right now for a new little one 🙂 If not, hopefully February or March, but unfortunately we can’t try past the point of June because of wedding season. Does it sound hypocritical to say we don’t want to put life on hold yet we won’t have a baby during wedding season? Kind of– but the truth is, that income is detrimental to our family and livelihood, it could be a lot that we miss out on and PLUS I LOOOOOVE shooting Spring weddings and would absolutely want to be available for them! 🙂
Well- here’s to wishing that we don’t get “stuck” waiting until next year and that it happens again in the next couple of months <3 Cammy deserves a sibling and will make an EXCELLENT big sister! 🙂
And– I definitely don’t want to share TMI, but trying to conceive isn’t so easy for everyone. Not everyone can just make googly eyes at each other and see a plus sign, hahaha! I know what it’s like to spend $$$ on tons of negative tests and what it’s like to cry over it. I have a lot of friends, clients and colleagues who have shared their struggles so I love being open and honest and doing the same XOXOXO!