I’m not an experienced traveler. I travel one state away and MARVEL at the new and exciting environment. When we visited New York via China Bus last summer, for ONE night and a day and a half I was tearing up left and right at the sights of the buildings, the hustle, the things I’d see in movies– and my FAVORITE, Times Square at night. Especially seeing MIKE see these things for the first time. I prefer living this way because then we I do go somewhere, I really appreciate and enjoy it.
My least favorite people to talk to about traveling are the best traveled that have stopped becoming amazed at the new sites and experiences — my favorite are the ones who travel occasionally and are SO enthusiastic about their trips and are totally in awe of the new environments. I am that person. I can make New York City sound the complete opposite of someone who “has been there a million times” EVEN if I too had been a ton of times. A fresh eye, seeing things in a new light– it’s a fun way to live and travel and I’m doing to do my BEST to feel this way about our England trip but there is something holding me back a little bit this time.
Since she was born, the typical and common baby blues turned into post partum anxiety and it’s something I’ve dealt with for the past 20 months. It’s not unmanageable and it’s nothing severe, but it keeps me so emotionally attached to my little girl and something that is always hard for me is leaving her. I would still rather deal with this than wanting to run out every single weekend and get “a break” from you. I feel better about our relationship knowing your daddy and I would much rather spend time with you if we had the choice. Whether it’s a full day at the sitter so I can edit a wedding, a date night with my husband or an afternoon where her grandma is in the other room watching you while I get work done…I miss you, we both miss you. You’re not just my child, you’re an extension of my heart, soul and being. You’re my purpose in life.
I am SO excited about this wedding, it’s my best friend who is getting married, I’m a bridesmaid AND the photographer and my husband is second shooting for me. I get to travel to another country for the first time in my life..something I always dreamt of. I am soooo grateful that because my friend (who I totally wish would move back:)) is giving me this GRAND opportunity to be a part of her wedding in more than one way AND…because she doesn’t even know what a beautiful life experience she is giving me that I would have otherwise not taken for a long time. She is giving my husband and I the chance to travel the world together– and who says you can’t do that when the babies come? 🙂 Key West was last year to shoot a wedding together and this year England– what’s next for us? 🙂
I will miss you little girl. I know you’re in good hands while we’re gone but my separation anxiety makes it hard to have you outta my sight. I hope you will know we are coming back and not be too mad at us for leaving. We’ll get you some royal baby souvenirs I promise! I just want you to know we will be thinking of you every single second and we can’t to take you there one day 🙂