It had been over a decade since the last tattoo, and I am a big fan of them and felt so overdue for this! I have wanted one for years and chickened out over and over, or was pregnant and couldn’t do it! There are a few others I am determined to get but in the mean time, this is the one that spoke the most to me and I just felt like I had to have now.
One of my favorite quotes is by Ralph Waldo Emerson. I love quotes, I love literature, but this quote speaks to my soul on so many levels. I hear it, and then I feel it. I feel it in my heart and I see it visually…I picture the words as scenery on a gorgeous day here in the Outer Banks. He says:
Live in the sunshine
Swim the sea
Drink the wild air
Simple words, simple concepts, such beauty and inspiration! Sunshine, something we seem to take for granted day in and day out. We drive to work, we wear our sunglasses shading ourselves from it and we watch it leave us every evening. And then again, the next day..the beautiful sunrise comes and how much of it are we really soaking in? I feel this part of the quote. The literal sunshine part..I understand it. One of my favorite feelings is being in the ocean alone on a hot day while the girls and Mike are playing on the beach, the sunshine on my face and shoulders. The way is looks at golden hour. The way our skin feels after a good day in it.
But there is a metaphorical part that speaks even louder volumes. To live in the sunshine, to choose to make THAT your home versus any dark place you have been, it takes guts. It takes a leap of faith. It takes becoming a positive person, and it definitely takes the strength to stop trying to figure out how everyone else’s grass got so green and shortcutting using their successes and to start immediately watering your own…finding your OWN sunshine, and choosing to stay there. I want to live only in the sunshine for the rest of my days.
When I met my husband, I was far faaaar from it. I had been somewhere else for years. It wasn’t just the thankless waitressing. It wasn’t just that, it wasn’t even riding the dreaded HRT for four years. It was me. I wasn’t happy and hadn’t been in so long, even though I put on a great front. He met me..fell so hard for me and just having someone really love you for who you are when you haven’t had anything like that before..it’s priceless. And it’s life changing. And I am so glad I stopped “looking” for the right guy and just let him come to me! I may have to thank the ex boyfriend that treated me like dirt for a while because without that, I may not have appreciated Mike..but everything happens for a reason. Every broken relationship, every broken friendship, every rough road we end up on..I know it’s all for a reason. Our reaction and our behavior from then on out, that’s how we can decide whether or not we want to live in the sunshine or live in the dark past.
My girls are my sunshine, my husband is my sunshine and I choose to live with them there for the rest of our days 🙂
I hope you will choose to live there with us too 🙂